Tindreia

Sometimes you meet new people that change the way you view the world, yourself, and reality..??
I have had several of those meetings lately. Wonderful people, that helped to drag me out from the hole I have been in for a couple of years.

I don't want to go into details, but in short I had a rough time,
and I learnt a lot about myself, about some things in general
and while it has taken a long time I can finally say it is going better.
Not perfect, but better.

Today I met someone very different to any people I have met in the past
and she inspired me a lot, the way she viewed creativity and the world was amazing...


So I decided to just. .. Just do it., I don't know what it is yet, but that's ok, I'll do something in the meantime till I find it.

I have also made many new friends over the last months and also gotten closer to older friends (as in both being in the same city now and also hanging out more)
And yeah, just sort of getting back a glimmer of life!

So yeah! I will try to do a drawing a day again, and just, get better again, and keep this positive momentum going!

Hope you have a nice day too! <3

~Tin

phew, so much going on at once right now.
But in a good way I guess.

I just need a bit more focus than I have currently, so any tips are welcome. <3

I changed web browser so I'm starting fresh with so many things.. for example what I get recommended on youtube etc. Before it used to be really shitty videos that I watched anyway. It was weird. Now I am trying to break that habit... It's actually really hard. But it will be worth it! :3

Thanks for your patience~
Tin

It's been a while!

I will try to come back on here now and update more often, I haven't been able to focus on art for a long time due to reasons, so that's why I was missing for a while.
I want to get back into doing dailies so I will try to upload them here again as a motivation!

So eh, hey again! I missed you guys! ^0^/

Tin~

I had to take a small break to focus on a school course but I'm back again for now! >w</

All summer I just spent feeling like I couldn't draw at all,

and although I should have practiced I just could not.

I just stared at a blank page for over an hour at a time, doodled a little and then gave up, because I knew I would fail before I started

I made a schedule for different things to practice on and how long I should work on it everyday, it lasted a week.

I was really out of the loop in every way, and although I had all the time in the world, I was really stressed and felt hopeless.

 

It was almost like when I was doing archery, I got stressed before firing every arrow because I knew I could not aim perfectly,

which made me let go of the string as soon as the target was in the middle of the crosshair, without making sure I held the bow stable or not.

I think it was called something like target-fear or something like that.

Needless to say, me thinking I would miss made me miss more than if I had just treated each arrow as a new shot without any expectations.

 

As I neared the end of the vacation I came to that realization;

If I treat every picture I do as something new, without any expectation for myself,

not only will I be able to draw again but also I might improve and draw other things than what I usually do.

 

I decided to start doing a picture a day again now, whether I want to or not,

as well as doing gesture sketches every day. (they are uploaded in scraps if you want to look at them. xD)

Although I feel really bad for wasting so much time of the summer without practicing,

I feel really fired up now and I am determined to work really hard to make up for the downtime.

I might have needed that time to catch up with myself too.

 

I feel really inspired and happy again for the first time in a long while,

and I hope the new schoolyear will be awesome and that I will learn a lot.

 

Welp that was kinda long and "deep" XD

But I felt like making a new journal since I haven't in a while.

 

So if you want to join in on doing gesture sketches and/or a picture a day then let's work hard together! ^0^/

And don't worry about making bad pictures, they are just a stepping stone to success. >0<

 

Tindre~ ☆